As I grew older..

It was a long time ago.
I have almost forgotten my dream.
But it was there then,
In front of me,
Bright like a sun--
My dream.
And then the wall rose,
Rose slowly,
Slowly,
Between me and my dream.
Rose until it touched the sky--
The wall.
Shadow.
I am black.
I lie down in the shadow.
No longer the light of my dream before me,
Above me.
Only the thick wall.
Only the shadow.
My hands!
My dark hands!
Break through the wall!
Find my dream!
Help me to shatter this darkness,
To smash this night,
To break this shadow
Into a thousand lights of sun,
Into a thousand whirling dreams
Of sun!

If you forget me..

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Dreams

Hold fast to dreams..
For if dreams die..
Life is a broken-winged bird..
That cannot fly..
Hold fast to dreams..
For when dreams go..
Life is a barren field..
Frozen with snow..

I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You

I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

I have no idea, I don't know how to face it..

Life, is just like a game, a dream.

Lifeee...

A lot of happy, sad things will appear in our lives, we must bravely face. This is life, has it's up and downs. After sad, cry, we should turn to be happy again. However, we shouldn't give up any opportunity for change.

Change? ...

We have to changed to let us become more good, not change to bad or the worse one.
Anything else we need to think a positive thought, don't think negative.. then we will changed naturally..

Well, I don't know what I have to say already..
All decisions by God, and God bless..

And， sorry for didn't update my blog for a long time already.

I don't know what to write.

I just want to say:

Be H O N E S T please.
I don't like people who lie.


Thank You. :)

今天是妈咪的生日.

妈咪，祝你生日快乐。
谢谢你一路来这么照顾我，爱我。
我也很爱你。
你为我付出很多，我很感激你。
所以，我会更加地珍惜你。

虽然我有时会有些脾气，可是你也是没有骂我。
辛苦你了。
还有，我其实很想告诉你我住在婆婆家，在北海。
你住在Penang。我们的距离很远，我有时很想念你。
幸亏，你也有顾虑到我的感受，你每个星期日都又回来陪我。
假期时又接我过Penang住。

很多人都说我们很像姐妹。
我想说的确是啊，只是每次我在你面前都没有说。
我们能一起去shopping，能一起去做我们想做的事情。
我很荣幸有你这个这么疼我的妈咪。


我喜欢的东西，你都会做给我，我真的很感动的。
咪，我很爱你！谢谢你。
Ｉ　ＬＯＶＥ　ＹＯＵ。

An Unforgettable Day For Us.

今天我想用华语写。


4/6

今天是我们学校的Canteen Day。
我早上5点就醒来了。
因为欢瑶的妈妈6点多就要来载了。
*有临时状况。
本来昨晚Vivian说要早上来我家，然后一起去的。
哪里知道，早上我一睡醒就打给她的时候，她的电话竟然关机了。（她睡觉习惯关机了）
我紧张到不知所措。哈哈。
过后，欢瑶的妈妈来了，Vivian才刚到。幸亏一切都来得及。

到了学校，我们就去McD吃早餐。
我，Vivian，育圩，伟臻，JiaNi狂在那边拍照。
哈哈，如果你们要看照片，Facebook有。

进到学校，没有比以前热闹。
不爽的 :(
我们逗留了几个小时后就决定去Sunway逛逛。
看了一部电影，超好看的。
"The Karate Kid"。我看到哭。
真是的，我每次去看电影，一看到感动的部分，就会不知不觉地哭了。
我不要这样啦，哎哟。
志立请我们看电影，谢谢他。（其实很不好意思，向还他钱的）
可是Vivian说，我难得能出来，他请一次没有关系的。
我就说好咯。毕竟不是只是请我一个人。

看电影之前，我们去了叮叮店，因为还有很多时间。
我，Ewe，Vivian玩赛车。好刺激，第一次玩耶。
可惜，Ewe的不能玩，那部机器吃钱的。我想是坏了吧？
我们还去了Mini Toons买了小梳子。很可爱。

过后，我们就回Ewe的家，我们打算去买东西填饱我们的肚子先。
回到家后，Vivian先去冲凉，然后就到我，过后就是Ewe。
好舒服，因为现在的天气很热嘛。
我在Canteen Day买给婆婆的茶叶蛋和Nasi Lemak都不知道还能不能吃。
还有，我们之前在班上一直说要吃青鱼，今天终于吃到了！
可是，我和Vivian很失望。因为，不好吃的。
它的酱加了花生，有一个味道不好吃。
可是，不错啦，因为我们是一起吃的。
Ewe的爸爸1/7生日，所以有生日蛋糕吃。
林Uncle，祝你生日快乐！:DD
我也买了炒河粉，我们一起吃。

本来是Vivian的爸爸来载的。
过后，没能载，妈咪今天星期日又回来北海的。
就打给她，过了半小时这样，我们便回各自家了。
好不舍得，给了Ewe一个拥抱。
过后就跟Vivian一起回家了。

回到了家，我冲了凉过后，就去睡觉了。
没吃晚餐了，因为刚才吃太多了。
很累很累，晚安。

I cried.

I already have a long time didn't update my blog, sorry.
Although there are many things I wanted to write, but I lazy.
Therefore, there is no new update for my blog.
But, today there is a feeling for me, I wanted to write my blog.

Recently, I met a new friend, some sad story he told me, I was so sad after I heard it. His relationship between his family is very pitiful.
His lil sis passed away, with a car accident. :'(
Although I don't even know his lil sis. But, after I saw her photos and some photo video clips those created by her friend from Facebook, I cried.
After this unfortunately case happened, my friend became very strange, very sad, and sometimes very emotional. So that, I'm very worried about him.

I just want to tell him, no matter what happens, you have to adhere!
You still have many friends support you, and I am here to support you, too.
Can you please happy? Don't be sad.
As a friend, I also sad for you. :(
Cheer up! I know that is hard, but how you also need to try.
I had been sad before, I'm sad until I self mutilation.
But, after a few weeks, I asked my self, why am I so stupid to do the thing such as that? It's not worth, and I cried.

You said you very envious me, because I got a good mother very love me.
Of course, yes for sure. She loves me, I love her, too.
But I didn't tell you that my parents already divorced since when I was small.
But, I felt that is the better way for them, they won't be quarrel everyday because of me, and they're still best friend.
However, I still got my mother, grandmother they all love me.
You too, your grandmother loves you, just she didn't told you.
And your parents love you, too. Just they didn't explained to you the reason why they wanted do for you like this.
We are the same, sometimes sad.
However, SAD, what can we do? We still the same need to survive for our life?
So, we need to think positive way, don't think the negative way and forget those unhappy things, be happy okayy? ILY :DD

Mother's Day + Ip Man 2 ♥

Mummy, I love you! ♥






09/05/2010.

Mummy told me to wake up this morning,
After i awake,
I said to her: 'Happy Mother's Day, mummy, I love you. '
Gave her a kiss, hug her. =)
She was happy.
I asked her what gift you want?
She told me that if you are well behaved everyday,
for mummy, every day is Mother's Day.
I was very touched. Very happy to have such a lovely mother!
I will cherish her! ♥

Back BUTTERWORTH.
My mother, me, my cousin and his girlfriend to Sunway Carnival watched this movie.
I am a minor, less than 18 years of age can not see this movie!
But no one doubts me. Haha, so I can go look slightly. XD
My mom was like to watch the film. The first episode, the mom on the chase to see.
Mother's Day, to accompany Mummy went to see this movie!
Nice, very excited to see. Haha, my mum cried.
She said what happened, she did not cry, but is in addition to the theater!
My mom, very cute. XD

The movie start on 9.40pm.
When I got home, had 12am more.
Showered, online!
Haha, online to go to sleep until 2.30am.
On Monday, although very tired but also to go to school!
Super tired, but it does not matter, is a happy day!

I stopped my science in the tuition class.

I stopped my science in the tuition class.
I asked Mum, she said, let me decide for myself.
She said that the subject i was weak, should be tuition ah.
Let me progress.
However, my decision is: no tuition in the science.

Sad.
I cannot see my friends! =(
Because I cannot accompany my good friend, Vivian.
Because I cannot see my good friend, Michelle.(舍不得她.)='(
However, we still have a lot of time, we can meet!
I love you all, I will miss all of you! ♥

And...


Mummy, I love you.
You didn't give me pressure.
You make me easy to study, never forced me.
Because you know my personality.
My test scores, not so good.
You didn't scold me or blame me.
Because you know me.
You are a good mother. =)
But who doesn't want their child is a reading genius? XD
I'm not. But, Mummy, I will do my best.
You say, I actually can read, only to see I want, or not.
I'm not don't want, is really not interested. I'm sorry.
I hope you will understand me. I know you can. =D
Because you are my Mummy! ILY! ♥.♥

Long time no update my blog.
I'm sorry. Recentlty very lazy. XD
Always late sleep,
I know that poor health, but we always like it. LOL!

When there is nothing to do, my approach is to write blog.

B.O.R.E.D

B=
0=
R=
E=
D=

Do you see? I am BORED!
When I finished writing blog, I will go to sleep.
May wake up early tomorrow, because I'm going to Penang.
Every time I went on Friday, but no one can take me.
Therefore, only wait until tomorrow morning. :D
I'm really boring, boring to the mold mold mold!
Recently feeling really super weird, I'm going crazy!
I should not revert to the old me that blur blur of the Stephanie.
Perhaps because one of my good friend, he was not reminding me.
So I will change this and that.

Just now look at the movie, I crying again.
Mum called to me, I said to her:''Mummy, and I was to concentrate on the tense parts of this movie, crying. You called me for?
She said:'' Wow, you have to see until cry? ? After, she called me to continue watch. ''
After I off the phone, and continue watch the movie, to cry again.
Speechless right? But what to do? Touching, if you see, you'll cry also! I swear!

Actually, I don't know what I wanna write.
So just S.I.M.P.L.Y write something about today.
So, got to sleep now.
ByeBye~
Tomorrow gonna start my work again. :D
I'm happy! How, you hell? Haha.
LOL, I'm just joking. Nothing to tell more.
Good night and sweet dream for anyone of my friends!
Stephanie say: I ♥ YOU ALL.
Yeeeeeeeepeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! XD

Today went to school, my friends are waiting to see my teeth. Lol!

Today, I still feel that choose to write in Mandarin.

我免费的三天假期完了。
哈哈，其实没去上课的日子过得还满快的。

由于我绑牙了，我的朋友们都很期待要看我的牙齿。
哈哈，我觉得很好笑。
可是，久了，就习惯了。
现在真的很不习惯。
多了一个东西在我的嘴里。
怪怪的。哈哈。
都吃粥，面包就要剪到很小片。
可是，是用吞的，不能咬。
还会痛啊。

最近我迷上了一部戏。
‘下一站，幸福’
超感动的，就哭了。
爱情，真的是让人摸不着头绪。
最近很喜欢很感性的话，没办法啊，我就是一个感性的人嘛。哈哈！

累了，没人懂我。
我是你的谁？
你心情不好，想骂就骂？
你从来就没有想过我的感受。
我没有理你吗？
我并不觉得。算了。
一切都太晚了？
可能吧。
我的心情很复杂，真的。

I'm tired! Those who know me, leave me. And those who don't know me, has been pretending to look like very understanding of me. WTF, really got me going crazy.

Recently become lazy.

Decided today to write in Mandarin! :D

好久没用华文写了，怀念！

26/4/2010
我人生中最怕的一天来临了。

因为我一生中拥有的'Vampire'和'白兔牙'牙齿，今天要跟它们说再见了。
就是绑牙！
怕怕。可是没办法,爱美就是要付出代价的。

下午就去牙医诊所了，去到那边，等了下就进去了。
洗牙，就开始绑牙了。
洗牙对我来说好痛。妈咪说我傻，洗牙哪里会痛的。
就真的会嘛，妈咪坏蛋，不相信我！XD

绑好了，还没有开始痛。
可是就觉得嘴里总是多了一些东西顶着，不舒服。
可是妈咪绑时，痛了三天，所以我就拿了三天的病假。
哈哈，牙医和妈咪还有朋友说，大多数会在晚上才会开始的。
真的好怕，现在开始有点痛了。
可是他们说它并不是痛，是酸？哈哈。
因为有铁线拉它们下来。（它们是指牙齿）

我这三天我看是对着我的宝贝laptop还有电话了。
还是做功课？哈哈，不懂。
好辛苦，终于明白妈咪的感受。

Well, not much to write so today just wrote until here.
I hope I can survive this difficult time in three days. Bye!

Already Gone.

Last time I just wrote to get rid of our teachers Seni her bad temper, is not used now. Directly replaced because other teachers to teach us.
For the new timetable, we all are not satisfied.
Replace a good teacher, bad teachers to teach.
Hate, had good teachers taught us, why the schools want to change the timetable?
Difficult to spend class time recently, I feel like wanna go to bed. Haha.
Seni teachers were replaced, and very sad, because in return is a worse teacher!Very unlucky,I heard someone say that this teacher, she does not seem like the female students, she is just like to close with male students.
If the male students asked her questions, even if she will not subject, but also to teach them.I heard directly silly out. Lol.
We also have to suffer. :(
I'd rather have the teacher back to our Seni, although she often curse.
There are also other subjects, good teachers to be replaced.
Replace good teachers, bad teachers still teach us, not fair.


School day is really difficult to spend!!
Who can help me? Haha.

Hope that our seni teacher would get rid of her temper.

Really boring, so just write blog's.

Seni's class again today.
We can not tahan the teacher.
Every day she curses, shouting.
She did not like this before, and she very good.
Because she used to be when my Form 1 class teacher, thanks to that time, her temper was not like now. Otherwise I would be mad.
She shouted loudly.
Vivian said: "这个死人头，如果有心脏病的人都会被她吓死！''
Very funny! We are all saying bad things about her, and time will pass quickly.
And when she treated the students well, she was very good. When she was bad, just like a crazy woman. Lol .
Her class is over, she still don't give us away.
Still at there nagging, curse.
=.=||| Hope that teachers will get rid of her temper, so we will no need to continue to suffer that. Hopefully!

P A I N .

Yesterday, after school, hurry home, showered, ate lunch, went to dental clinic. Afraid, so what? Is not the same need to face the fear? I am not saying that before I chose the package does not require extraction? Mummy said that my teeth very close, do not pull out how to tie? So I decided to consult with the dentist. We have been into the dentist room, sit down, suppress Take my tooth model, said that my four teeth pulled better. Silly me out on the spot. Therefore, the Mummy first tie teeth. After, 1 hour more, well, Mummy says no pain, and I see her teeth look quite nice. To me! Afraid!When I called the dentist injections can give me do not feel pain. He said okay. After I closed the eyes. I am afraid, so I hand-holding the nurse. The nurse sister very nice, she let me hold her hand until I finished pulling teeth. Dentist put a lot of anesthesia to my mouth, but why do I still feel pain? Cry. 4 pull out teeth, dentists say: well done. Haha. But my teeth are really painful. It's really a mouth like swollen, but when I look at the mouth mirror is not swollen, what should be the anesthesia so that inside of my mouth swollen. Bleeding. I told my dentist MC, because tomorrow I think I should not go to school. Back until home, quickly eating painkillers first! Went to sleep, pain that can not sleep! Tired after only sleep . Hard to swallow, the other day I slept until morning, dinner eaten, can not eat. Now, even a cup of milo and bread is immune. I think my lunch is only porridge. I think I should be in the next week or next next week, tied teeth. Well, to write here. Byebye.

A few days did not refresh my blog. A lot of nonsense to write XD

Don't understand why the press has been to delete the button. Now this is my third re-type for this. Hope it will not press to the delete button . Sighh *

Forget it, I don't want to write another already. Written today, 8/4/2010.

Go to school this morning, very excited mood.
Because today there is no class, not truant!
Haha, then what is?
Is to school Lawatan, located in Bukit Mertajam in a College.
We listen on science and mathematics courses.
3A class of students to, 3B only 5. Me and my good friend, she called Vivian.

When Perhimpunan, there have been some unhappy things happened.
Hate that person's mouth, shut up please!
The person said something, so that we all don't like.
Forget it, just don't want to mention that person.

Perhimpunan will be over, we went to canteen berkumpul. The bus came.
After quickly, me and Vivian go on the bus, looking for a good sit down place.
After about 30 minutes? Or what, forget already. To reach the place .
Have not been to that place, that place we had never heard before, that place we didn't looked it too.
When we went in, with our imagination in a completely is different! Haha.
We would have thought that there is a big one College, and there are many handsome guy walking around or something, where to understand, NO, N-O = NO. -.-|||
It doesn't matter, then we go to his office on that floor,We have a classroom for lectures. They introduced themselves, and after that an Indian fat fat lecturer, he was very cute, have been always saying:''Alright and Okay.''Called him as ''Teacher.Alright'' better. Haha. He gave us some games, Quiz. Answer in the game! Very fun. Divided into 2 groups, to the last of our group won! ! Our group of 16 questions answered correctly, another group of 14 questions answered correctly. Our prize: a pen, with their college's name. We do not care about prizes, just care about playing the course! XD

Lunch time! Ha ha, a lunch box, open up, is a cute packet of Nasi Lemak and some pastries, and a glass of water. After all students eat, we went to science rooms look? This looks like inside the hospital. Their students there for show us. After the free event, the Malays over there taking pictures or something. We see the dummy, they lived the rest of the body open to the dummy to see if there is no male organ, where the know: Ohh , got! Haha. Teachers also came to open up, said:''Buka lah, ada murid mau tangkap gambar.''Really funny!!! Skip a lot of things, sorry har!

After the course over, because this is a college in the next plaza. Teacher let us go for a walk, 35 minutes later to set the door extraoral, originally boy and girl can't walk together one , but not all together after the walk? Malays they're more funny. We became the four Chinese to come along. WenJie treat us to eat KFC, thanks to him. =D Sit at KFC for a while and then walk, time's up ! we wait at the outside. Such a moment, the bus came, we face this election to the last. Very nice place! Haha. Returned to school, waited 40 minutes before they can go home, rain, and so we ran to the school bus, on the bus was. --- End --- Finally finished !
Sorry if too long, you can no need read, because all the nonsense! Haha.

Perhaps I think too much .

Recently, I have really become very blurred,Although I admit I am a very blur person, but I don't understand why I will felt that. What I think is very complicated, annoying. I need some rest, but I cannot do. Help me! I don't want myself continue to blur !!

I feel even more good friends, but also hate each other's side.

I just read a friend's blog, she was right.


I consider myself, since I am the way, are usually the first place to a friend. Sometimes I think, is the right choice? Friends really trust it? I don't know. My friend really that important? Me will say yes. Up. . I tried a taste of the kind of cheated, very hard to accept, is really very hard to accept. Sometimes cry? Haha. But in the end is not the same as participating together again? I am a very strange one, each time with friends, or who argue, I will apologize first and the other says, no matter who is right, who's wrong. So,for me, a friend is like that:" When nothing good to die! Something happens, the tube you die!" Haha. Intimate know the enemy, or not to put too much friends. Even a good sister, cannot be too sure. Parents are not always by my side, while feeling bad experience, but there is no way. When there is mind, no one could give me about, so I had told friends that slightly. I have put all my thoughts are telling her, but she has not betrayed me? Well aware. I will not be so stupid again. My mummy always told me, friends, a different stage of a phase, starting from kindergarten to primary, secondary, university, will participate in the community are not the same friends. I think mummy was right, but if there is no friend to a stage, would not be miserable? Haha. No matter what, this is my idea. Oh, can give me some comment ? =)

M.A.T.H.S.= MENTAL ATTACK TO HEALTHY STUDENT..=P

M.A.T.H.S.= MENTAL ATTACK TO HEALTHY STUDENT..:P

Maths tells us 3 of the saddest love stories:
1. Tangent lines who had chance to meet and then parted 4ever....
2. Paralell lines who were never meant 2 meet.....
3. Asymptotes who got closer & closer... but never meet together... even then ppl say MAths is boring :'(


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I have decided not to fill Malay and mathematics in tutorial.

Look for more detailed tutorial to teach the teachers.I would like to further my studies in mathematics. But I have a traffic problem, no one can take me.I hope my uncle can be set. If so, give him set delivery fee. Then I would not have so many pieces of the. You know, if think too many stuff, will soon be old. I don't want to grow old so quickly . T.T

Have you thought about? When you say you miss someone, is that true?

'Miss' is what? If you don't know, please do not casually go around other people say! Would like to ask you guys, are you trying to miss a real one or something? You know the feeling of miss it? Miss one, it will not wait for looking him / her. If not met, and will often chat with each other or texting. 'Miss', you have a strange, very special feeling. There are many, many, we do not know. So, please do not easy telling people: 'I miss you'!

Today start, I will not be good on the Malay boys!

Very curious, some Malays like framing people for? Mathematics section of this morning, when the teacher checks notebook, almost our entire class did not do the homework, so have to be whip. When teacher walk until my place , the teacher saw my nails and said:''Why does my nails so long?'Afterthat, she whip me three times, told me to cut. I h. I have no rational Well, after a group of Malay boys sitting next to me as if framed me, take nail scissors to me. I cut a finger nail, math teacher asked me, already cut? And then ignore her, I will do my homework. Mood super accurate, and hate Malay boys. After class, all right, the mood is back to normal back! = D

Abusive teachers without a brain .

To: our school teachers
If you do not teach patience, please do not be a teacher. Lazy lazy to no words of. Our art teacher! Lazy to copy their notes on the blackboard, on the use of reading. With the idea of not tight, but not to such a fast read. I see only a few Malays catch up with. So what's not, even worse, a little on shouting, people looked at all when you are crazy! Menstrual cramps? Class Indians are laughing and also of your business? A little bit of the curse, they blame themselves will laugh, sometimes wonder she got mad. Tell you that you be a teacher when to this, is really very bad! We all do not like this teacher!

My school's extra class .

School recently, many of extra class, the teacher volunteered to teach us. I believe I have said my math is really bad, right? So I automatically tell the teacher that we stayed to practice our math, because that list there are no me and my friends name. It is 1 for every 2 weeks, 1 hour. A school, we went to a cafe near our school to eat. We ordered a fried rice 3. Long time not to the cafe to eat. After eating, we are back to school, afraid too late! Then we first went to call their families, they go up the class of the. We were late for only 3! Haha. We quickly find a place to sit down and concentrate on the math lesson. Practice teacher took the paper to us, for me, so hard. But I will cheering =)

Happy April Fool !!

I believe many people know that today is the 'Fool's Day'. Haha. I fool a lot of people! Happy! ! The people who I cheat you , I'm sorry. =) I hope you do not mind, because only this can cheat it! ! = D

Tutorial van is broken?

Just finished tuition, just like the previous tutorial van to go home to do business as usual. There know, van open to seberang jaya of the flyover, van suddenly turn off. Oh!! Originally van broke down! All our students are sitting form3 inside. have fun! After a while, we all decided to get off, and some called their parents to set some on the walk back. As for me, and I live near the taman of two girls walking home with friends. We talking and laughing along the way, a lot of cars on the road, we are shouting, while crossing the road. Ha ha. Also, we still afraid of being robbed or abducted to fight with! them to the intersection outside my house, because there is still a way from my house So I called my grandfather set up my motorbike rack, my two friends before my grandfather not to accompany me so! Very grateful to them two! ! Over the next, my grandfather came, we say goodbye. I even told them that all the way to be careful! ! Home, and shower, Internet. Haha. Is really a rare experience! =)

Have checked my teeth in the dental clinic .

To that clinic, as I walked in, very nervous! To the counter, fill in the form, my hands are shaking, scared. Is our turn, because we have pre-made appointment, so do not wait long. One went in, thanks to a very good dentist's face, not the old man, so I will not feel disgusted = P. We have three to tie teeth, and I, my Mom and Auntie. Therefore, a check on a dentist, he took a thing, that is to print our model of the teeth, a bit like jelly soft, but I can not tolerate the kind of flavor. After we have according to the x-ray [for teeth], I have four wisdom teeth =). By the way, could have been next Monday's, but this dentist's appointment are full, we had to wait until next Monday, braces will be placed on my teeth. Very nervous, but for beauty, no way. My mom would accompany me to tie teeth. = P. I = RM5xxx my Mom = RM4xxx, expensive? No way, for beauty. Hope to tie up will see the results! Also, I hope I will remove the tie dental fear! Speak in terms of go, is to beauty only. Lol. Went bankrupt!

闷。

人生就是这样吗?
我不清楚。
‘闷’
这个字已经跟着我有一段时间了。
哈哈。或许，我也摆脱不了它。
好期待17岁的来临。
不懂为什么。就是有那种期待。
可能是因为17岁我就可以自由了吧。
哈哈。我常常在想：为什么妈咪不给我出门。
其实..我明白她的苦心。她也只是担心我啊=）

我...
想学跳舞。
想和朋友去shopping。
想自由自在的没有烦恼。

跳舞?
为什么想学跳舞?
我也不懂。
就是想嘛。
哈哈。
到17，18岁才去学，会太晚了吗?
好怕骨头都硬去了。哈哈。

Shopping?
为什么想和朋友一起去?
不用想也知道，女生天生就是爱逛街嘛。
尤其是和朋友！
不管去哪里都是开心的。哈哈。
那感觉理所当然是别于跟家人的。
不过，我还得等多几年。
没关系^^真的没有关系。
我愿意等。好过没有~ =P

自由自在?
为什么要自由自在?
相信很多人都喜欢自由，不喜欢约束吧。
本人当然也是同意那种想法。
可是。偏偏就要等到17，18岁。
有点不喜欢被约束的感觉。
就好像...被绑架的感觉！
哈哈。开玩笑而已。


我希望：世界不要这样闷。
：可以学跳舞。
：可以跟朋友出去。
：可以自由自在！

拜托！让我的愿望成真。哈哈。

开心的一周。

头发直直了，离直烫。
大概有两年没电了。开心。

要靠近学校的运动会了。
老师几乎没有教书。
有点闷。
运动会在星期六。
而且是一定要出席的。
没去了。哈哈。没办法。
不是懒惰。巴士没载。
所以就不用去咯。

想起form1和form2时参加的 BB martching。
把我嗮到变黑人。伤心。幸亏变白回了。
我要谢谢我的：美白面膜，美白lotion，美白shampoo，美白blah blah blah 。
哈哈。算是没有白费心机 =)

今天我的姐妹来我家。
看鬼戏！Ju-On
哈哈。
很开心。
可是没什么恐怖的。
看到我们闷，就一直换戏看XD

晚上的补习班。
2个subject。
sejarah&math。
math超难的！T.T
好想不要补form3的先。
打算补回form2的math。
本来想补form1的。
可是时间的问题。
看得出我的math很差吧。>.<

星期一没有上学。
晚上要去检查牙齿。
怕怕。要绑牙了。
我有白兔牙+vampire牙。哈哈
‘痛’?
没办法。谁叫我是女生。
爱美就是要受苦！
这次下定决心了。
以前很多人读叫我去绑牙。
可是怕。过后。。
我想了这个问题好久，躺在床上想到半夜才睡。
算了，还是去绑吧。哈哈。
希望绑了过后会变美>_<

今天就写到这里吧。掰掰。

明天又再过槟城。

我到底是要过几次槟城啊？
哈哈。可是这次去不是Shopping了。
是去读书，温习的。
我堂姐说我不会的科目都可以带去她家给她教我。
加油！=)

3.28am .
It's Time For Bed .
Goodnight .
Muaxx .

明天还要早醒。
不懂我这个懒惰虫睡得醒吗。
哈哈。

心情好多了。

我没事了。
过去的事就让它过去吧。
做人不要在乎这么多。

谢谢Ian。
我昨晚心情不好，信息很多朋友。
[我也知道这么晚了，朋友们都睡到好像猪了XD]
可是只有他特地醒来回复我。
那message来的一瞬间，好开心。
他也牺牲了他的睡眠来陪我。
真的很感激他。
那时我们通了电话。
感觉很奇怪，因为他不会说华语的。
所以我们就用了英文来沟通。
那时已经4.36am了。
他8am还要去他学校的scout activities。
可是他还是说没关系。
我们聊到了5.34am。
心情好回了。睡了一觉。
我只睡了4小时多。


我的好朋友。谢谢你。=D

有点生气。都是我的错。

刚才只是按错一个东西罢了。
我的gadget就全部不见了。
酱多突然不见去。
我弄到很辛苦的勒。
这一刻真的好想哭！
没人能体会我现在的心情。
都是我自己拿来的。
听那个死鬼说的，
早点去睡嘛没有事咯！
还在这边online，发发Facebook，Blogging。
还去找什么blog的layout！
我真的是一个笨到不能再笨的笨蛋！
算了算了。
再见了。我全部弄不见的'宝贝'。
huh。。我讨厌这一瞬间的我！
真的好想一眨眼又回到弄不见那些'宝贝'的那一刹那。
恨我自己！

DAMN IT ！！

还能怎样呢？只好重新做过全部咯。
现在已经4.23am了。
我看做到来都天亮了啦。
DAMN IT ！

伤心！

我竟然弄了那个layout，把我blog所有的gadget全部不小心delete去了！
怎么办？？谁能帮我？？

华人。华语

这是一个坏蛋说的XD

我想也对啦，华人就应该用华语嘛？

最近心情其实还不赖。
应为放假嘛，只是放假还有补习。闷。

14/3。Unforgettable Day 。
当我知道我要跟我2年没见的堂姐堂弟们见面时，心情可是很紧张呢。
因为最近又联络回，我跟我的堂姐sms时聊到。我们打算到Gurney走走，看电影。
我竟然紧张到晚上睡不着？？哈哈。是的，本小姐是紧张到睡不着。很瞎吧。竟然在床上翻来翻去翻到4点多才睡去。lol。在我发梦发到最甜美时，妈咪叫我醒了。然后我就好像失眠酱，走去厕所刷牙，洗脸，冲凉。换好了衣，出发咯！好兴奋。叮咚。门开了，我2年没见的堂姐，Nicole开了门，她17岁了，很厉害读书XD。然后我就走进去咯。我的小堂弟，Dennis就说了：Hi ！他今年才八岁，他的英文是好到。。。你想像不到的程度！哈哈。因为我爹地边的家庭都是说英文的，并不会华语。我妈咪放我在我干grandmother的家过后，我就走进去我堂弟，Jason的房间，他每天几乎都是在玩game的。过一会儿就出发到Gurney去了。我们本来是要看Alice In The Wonderland的。可是票完了？Gurney的戏票生意真的很好，然后我们就选择了我朋友介绍我的：Under The Mountain。超好看！推荐给你们！看完了，我们就去走走。我堂姐说她要去买Purse。走了很久，看了又看，她终于买到了。然后走了走，看到了一档首饰档口，Nicole就买了一条手链，上面的字体是：MONICA。我干grandmother的名，cool吧。哈哈。那个档口的阿姨看我们全部都说英文，她也跟我们说英文。因为Dennis坏蛋，所以她就说:"You...you are a naughty boy ..later your grandmother will scold you ."卡住卡住的。好可爱。哈哈。过后我就去打耳洞。哈哈。现在我的左耳有3个耳洞，右耳2个。开心^^。到了6点多，妈咪就来载我们去吃晚餐咯。吃完，载他们回家后，就依依不舍地说：“Let's meet at next saturday,I will miss you guys so muchh.Bye。”很开心，我拍了很多照片。Nicole不是一个喜欢拍照的人，可是我还是逼他拍了很多张XP。哈哈。 --完毕--

18/3。洗头篇。
早上跟家人过了槟城。
吃了早餐，就去小姨的头发店。
好久没去了，因为几乎每次都是去妈咪的店。
去了那边，坐了不久。
婆婆就问我要帮她洗头吗？
我就说：“哦。”
然后就去洗咯。洗完。他们说，没看过我帮他们洗头。
过后全部都抢着要我洗。5个有吧？哈哈
我小姨开玩笑说：“supporter多咯。”哈哈。拍谢罢了。
过后我小姨就说就说。。
问你妈咪给不给我请你当part time。哈哈。
过后我小姨关店了，就说去kutabali吃。
我妈咪关店了，所以就一起去吃。
我们先到了那边，就叫东西吃先咯。
那边有60多档的档口。都不懂要吃什么。
过了不久，妈咪就来了。
我们叫了：
东海岸烧鱼。
薄饼。
2碗鸭脚面线。
咖喱鱼头。
猪脚醋。
泰式炒饭。
炒饭王。
蛤。
蚝仔煎。
不要吓到。我们叫酱多是因为有9个人。哈哈。
吃完了，我们就回北海了咯。:)

正在上网：Facebook，Msn。

Updated ..for CNY 2010

ermm..

quite lazy to writing my blog now ..

let me think wanna write what 1st ...

现在开始就campur-campur了蛤...

因为过了太久...忘记了>.<

新年,一年比一年闷了..

天气又热到....没有话讲

想起以前的新年,

因为我们还小的关系,所以还有得玩..

毕竟...长大了..

就只剩下:穿美美

:扮靓靓

:拿红包

:吃好料

我也一时想不到还有什么了..

总之..就是“闷”一个字咯!!

我的新年衣竟然不知不觉地买了有4大袋的量...

害到我,新年完了,都还穿不完...>.<

故事开始.....

每年的年初一都是去daddy家的嘛..[parents divorce jor]

哪里懂daddy竟然出差??

难道工作真的比自己的女儿还重要吗??

以前一次都没试过这样的..

刚好今年的新年还遇到情人节..huh

电话突然响了..原来是我grandpapa打给我^^..

很开心..说完了过后...

我的Grandpapa还sms给我

He said : Our dearest Stephanie , ah gong and ah ma thank you for your wishes ,we love you and miss you ,daddy will fetch you come our house when chinese new year right ? ask him to bring you to our house,do not come on 15 Feb to 19Feb,we are in KL to find su ling gu gu them [my daddy sis] ..hope will see you :)

我就一直sms给daddy..

我说: my lovely daddy , the 1st day of chinese new year , u will come fetch me go ah gong ah ma house right?

他说: sorry ya my darling girl stephanie ..daddy not in penang now ..so i can't accompany girl girl this year ..

我说: why??if this year chinese new year without u , ah gong and ah ma , it was meaningless !!

他说: stephanie , sorry ..and daddy hope that u will play happilly ..happy chinese new year !

我说: daddy !!! how can u like that :'( then i through phone to him ..

[内容不宜透露..sorry ]

过后我的心平静下来了..就想..没关系^^..我还有mummy陪我..

所以今年的情人节就跟妈咪度过了咯..

晚上,我跟我的小舅和他的女友就过槟城..

他们放我在妈咪家..

所以今晚我就在槟城的家睡了咯.....

今天是30晚,吃团圆饭的日子是吧?

mummy有开店,她说今天来的人都是要set美美的..
可是double-charge勒..双倍的意思..

--skip--

放工咯..今天的customer也不会说很少..还不错^^

现在我都有开始帮妈咪做工了...

每次回到家,我都会complain..haha XP

咪ar...我的肩膀啊..帮人洗头洗到酸咯~腰酸咯..她就会帮我special*massage ...

haha...看我的妈咪多好^^

[以上一段呢,本小姐是在赞赏我自己的...所以是废话来的XD]

--skip--

然后我就先去我干妈的家...

--->STEAMBOAT<---

本小姐因为怕新年会发胖,所以就吃一点点罢了..

因为等下还要过北海吃多一次的STEAMBOAT...

哈哈...吃完了,就依依不舍地跟我抱了干妈就说掰掰了咯...

回到北海时,由于有点饱的关系,所以就只是吃一点意思咯..

不然等下又说我没有尊重XD...

喝了红酒...哈哈...脸红红而已...没醉哦...

就拿我的宝贝laptop出来上网咯..

以为回到半夜才回家了..

哪里懂12点多时,妈咪就说回家了...

就逼不得已回家咯...哈哈

回到家,妈咪帮我换了我的新的床套..pink lady=)..好可爱,好喜欢..^^

过后,冲完凉那些就去睡了...

隔天,我们早早就起身了,因为今天要去妈咪朋友的家拜年..

我们先去吃早餐...过后就去了..

抵达妈咪朋友家了...首先是去ah chin姨的家..

我妈咪的朋友一个个都是有钱人XD..

他们的家真的又大又美..

去到了那边,我们就进去咯..

好多人哦...

原来等下下午1点时会有舞狮来...那我去到那边,第一个动作当然是拍照咯..

谁叫我是个自恋狂..哈哈..不拍照就觉得全身不自在的...HeinekenXD

懒惰upload我的照照了XD

不是说舞狮回来的咩..??

等了好久都还没有来..

ah chin姨beh tahan liao..

直接打过去给他们..

哪里懂他们说：“蛤..sorry sorry...我们忘记了,现在来,现在来”[用福建话]

哪里懂到了四点多才来啊...

他们还没有来之前,ah chin 姨叫他的朋友们把那个舞狮咬的菜和大红包特地吊到高高,给他们咬不到...XD,活该...谁叫他们迟到...他们来了过后,有2只舞狮,舞进家里的每一个房间...也不懂做么的..

然后外面又有放鞭炮...热闹死了...精彩部分来了...他们看到那个东西吊到这么高时,有人听到他们说：“哇....吊卡按呢管”[福建话]...笑死我...过后,他们决定用人塔人的方式上去那那个东西...结束了...

过后去我妈咪朋友,Charmaine&Ling的新家...

刚装修好,还没搬进去而已...三层楼的...

一走进去,好有艺术时尚感...

狂拍照XD....

过后...去我妈咪另外一个朋友的家,我叫那个uncle胡瓜的..

因为他的脸蛮像胡瓜的[台湾的一个艺人],可是这个我妈咪的朋友比较瘦...

他的家也是三层楼的...

哇...你一走进去,你可以说是到了皇宫...

说真的,听妈咪他们说,他的屋子的装修费还比他的屋子来的还要贵...

算是几million的....它里面真的高级到超乎你的想象!!

你们有看过“珠光宝气”这出戏吗??

那个里面的蔡少芬她的更衣间不是有得选鞋的咩??

那时我看了,我就跟妈咪说,如果真的看到有人这样,真的是很geng...

哪里懂..竟然给我看到了!!

第三楼,是他们2公婆的天地..

他的老婆的鞋子全部摆在那边..就真的好像“珠光宝气”里面的...

甚至还比戏里的还要高级..

我看了都傻眼..哈哈

一打开他们又特别设计的衣橱...

他们的衣服和鞋子多到....你都会吓到...

我又拍了很多照片...看我等下有时间post吗..

然后我,我妈咪,Charmaine,Ling ..

就去EVERGREEN HOTEL吃buffet咯...

新年+情人节而已嘛...价钱就变2倍...

妈咪请客^^...

那时很晚了...过后又回ah chin姨的家..

赌博..哈哈

好了...还有很多写不完了....

初2,初3,初4初5初6,初7.............bla bla bla

懒惰写了....不好意思蛤^^

我累了....不写了哦...^^

First Time .

T.T 那次星期六没去学校去帮妈咪忙而已嘛。。
又不是逃学。。怎么学校这么残忍的？？
男生就被鞭屁屁。。女生就得拾垃圾。。
叫我们没来学校的去拾垃圾一节啊！！
第一次。。
不过没关系啦。。就当一下学校的义工咯=）
哈哈。。其实我们学校也算蛮干净的嘛。。
只是有很多糖果纸之类的。。
我们几乎有20多个女生。。
分成1组4个人。。我跟carrie还有2个女生一起。。
出发咯！！
拾垃圾活动--开始！！哈哈
好恶心。。真的好恶心。。而且好臭=.=
过了一节多。。我们终于可以回班了。。
当然第一时间冲去消毒咯。。
去了厕所洗了手。。脚好酸。。
回到了班，向老师解释后，马上坐在我的座位。。。
开始跟朋友聊天了。。哈哈。。
今天真的是很好笑^^
好啦。。就写到这里吧~掰掰

情人节和新年都要到了。。
我的朋友们。。
情人节快乐+新年快乐哦=）

Can't you understand ??!!!!!

"bla bla bla" ..i got some word really want said to you ! i already told you that...my internet don't know why can't online just now, so i just come xiao jiu room online for a while only zek , i know you r sleeping ..but i got said excuse to you wor...please don't do ur pattern everytime , i also human kay ? got feeling one , don't u understan...d ????! ...WTF .. damn moody now !!!!!!! ..Don't her understand that if i can't use my pc , i will go inside the room to use the another pc online to disturb you ??! the feeling really not so good !!! hope you will knew !!!

No more energy !!

ROAR ***********
STEPHANIE was no more energy now..
i just help my mummy work for 2 days only..

1st day : 30/1/2010 , Saturday
The customer really so many..come to perm their hair and do anythings else la ..and i wash until i want crazyy already la !! I was busy until my lunch also want 4.++pm like that only ate ~until 7.++pm ,customer become less ~the time i can only rest =)

2nd day : 31/1/2010 , Sunday
I really confuse for that , why all ppl sure come to set their hair near CNY one ??
huh ....my lunch also no time to eat , straight eat my lunch and dinner at night ..so pity ..
sunday is 6.30pm finished work one..but we work until 9.++pm for that night ...back until butterwoth that time already 11.++pm already ..LOL..so tired ..really very tired ..

Whatever la ..i just knew my shoulder are still very pain now ='(
and almost all parts of my body seem like want broke liao..
u can imagine that i was so tired for that ..
so today i din't went to school ..
my mummy call me rest .. =)
have a great rest for whole night ..
but anyway ...i was happy for that can help my mummy ..
my lovely mummy ~i love you more than i can say ..muackxzz

I get my own SALARY 1st time =)

Just get the salary before holidays i work from my mummy ...
so happy and excited ... i love her so muchh !!
RM 400 ...and she help me save RM 300 in my bank account and let me spend that RM 100 for anythings i want ..but ..i gave my grandpa and grandmum and my gan mummy RM 30 ...cause i 1st time working and get salary ma..they was happy =)
that day went for prangin until 6:++pm ..afterward me and mummy go at the hokkien mee famous at Komtar there one ..while i was eating...i looked at my phone..
ooopsss!! time passed so fast ...7:++pm already =.=''' ~so me said to mummy faster back butterworth le la..luckily , there was nit too many cars arrounding at there...so i can go for tution straightly ~ but when i was reached the tution place , already 7.30++ pm already ...late for half hour and more...haha..it does'nt matter ~ cause i still got enough time to listening what the teacher Wong was teaching ~Because the time problem , i have no time to back house to clear the cosmetic on my faces ..so i needa go tution with makeup ..1st time i makeup to tution , so shy ....T.T ..luckily i din't draw the eye liner, if not i will looked more matured ! haha ~ They all say nice wor...happy happy happy ! hehe~
................................................................................................................so fast finished tution already
back till home , sure bath 1st la..then i was enjoy my dinner ...
so tired !! but i was happy enough !! that was an awesome day for me ^^
gotta sleep earlier now...cause i promised a person before ..1st time so earlier sleep for this few weeks..without today ...haahhaa ;) Anyway .....continue on another day ...night night =z

stress !!

Long time din't write my blog already =)

~Paranormal Aktivity~

That was a true ghost movie ..so have some parts are very scared me ,but i just can said this such a nice ghost movie ..I really like it so mucchhh!! ;) really AWESOME !

~Penang Prangin Mall ~

That day i went to penang prangin mall with my lovely mummy~~
we go about 4:++ pm like that ..
and i hv tution at 7:00pm ..
luckily din hv traffic jam or anything else..
so at the penang bridge there was no many cars crowed at there ...after reach there..we suggest to buy shirts and shoes.. p/s: for New Year one ..hehe =)

The Things I Has Bought That day :

Oxygen de singlet : it cost RM25 for 1 ..but i bought 4 ..so it should be RM100
O+P de shirt : RM23 x 2 = RM46
shoe by Opera :White colour one cost RM79.90
: Cute Black colour one cost RM 69.90
: RM 150
2 couple T-shirt : cost RM20
cool blog ice blended : cost RM 2.50

That day i has been spended RM 300.++
haha...still want go one more time on sunday .. =)
i was crazyyy :$
hahaha...........................................bored !!

I'm almost stress by this few weeks...
homework ? online ? love ? family ? friendship
which 1 i was busy for that ?
is FRIENDSHIP ..
in my rank ...i always put my friend at the 1st ..said truly ..
but...sometimes when i know the truth , but my friend still bluff me said :" no ar no ar.."
most hated like that ! i tell u all my things without secretly..but u treat me like that ???!
really sad enough...but next day ..i will think , why i should do like that ?
ANGRY for ??? and also...angry can't solve anythingsss as we knew...
so i choosen HAPPY more better than ANGRY ~~ahhha
but got someone will make me happy while everytime i was moody ...
who is'it ? ....SECRET ...hehe ..





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today webcam with my dear Crystal [bestt friendd]
haha...such more problems about my webcam leh...
who call me kepo go download another webcam programs wor..
see ~ make a big mistakes le la ..chamm...
do quite a long time ..finally i solve the problemss..
really headache for that !!
continue cams with my dear lur...
but keep dc dc and dc ...pekk chhekk nia ..
haha...afterward...she call me write blog wor..
ma write lur..nothing to do wad ~~
chat chat chat .....suddenly said ..


WHY THIS WORLD SO BORING ONE ??
confusing for that question...
really damn damn damn bored !!
i also don't know want write what already ...haha








anyway ...goodnight and sweet dreams ya =)
love you all ya my dear friends~~

WooHooo...YeeePeeeee

Suddenly got some mood to write back my blog ..haha
me really become lazy lazy and lazy !! haha
yesterday my friend and i went to sunway carnival mall for watching a movie..
but it was too many movie for us to see ..hiak hiak ..so we dont know wanna choose which one ..
when i was reach there, we ate pizza hut cause too hungry ady =P
afterthat , we choosen the movie name "The Spy Next Door" by Jackie Chan that 1 ..
such funny and got a bit touching T.T hehe
both of the the children inside of the movie are cute and 1 guy are handsome enough ,but he is the bad guy in the movie ..hahaha !!
time pass time...when we see finished the movie,the time was 11.++ pm already ..
so we needa back home =) tired enough but FUN !!! so enjoy for yesterday !!
I LOVE YOU ALL MY FRIEND !!